i feel like i have come to this point in my life..where i am just this HUGE failure! i wanted to be a writer! A novelist! I guess since i was published i am...and yet...and yet! The book was met with mixed reviews...and i feel like no matter what i want it always comes back being...so little...too little! Nothin i do ever pleases me...and i know so many writers..poets..artist who feel the same way..u r ur own worst critic...still...i feel like i have failed!
Then on top of that i feel like i've left soo many other ppl down..my mother, Bryan, Colin, Dominic, everyone!
i did it for them...and this is what they get...this sad depressing lil thing...almost 5 yrs of this flirtation..that really comes to nothin much in the end!
i hate this! i hate it so much!
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infuriated |